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So I've been holding off on sharing some news, because I had to ensure my parents knew first, after the last time I gave them a whole week to know... I am not extending and will be home in February as originally planned. Lots of reasons contributed to my decision but the main one was money. Whilst Pat and my parents were willing to offer me the money to help out with the extension and insurance fees I knew it'd be another thing I'm far too conscious about and desperate to pay the money back, gift or not. On top of that my credit card which we all know has been maxed out for a few months is causing me stress because to get money home without paying a fortune in transferring fees requires me to send a parcel. So if I go put $80 in the parcel I am spending at least an extra $20 on postage and insurance, not to mention whatever is in the parcel to send. My parents offered to clear the debt for me. I refused their offer, thanked them but said I couldn't accept it. I have been spoiled, I know that, but I know I don't have to let them. To learn about responsibility and all that I need to pay off my debt, otherwise the lesson might not be learnt. To add to the money my grandpa has been more sick than usual this year, which concerns me and whilst if someone dies during my initial I can live with that, but if something happened during my extension and I had never been 100% sure about either decision, to stay or go home, I would end up very upset with myself. I know we can't control life and death but I can control where I am. If I was a 100% I'm sure I wouldn't worry but I wasn't 100% positive that I was making the best decision. Further from that, whilst Mum and Rach got used to me not being home in February when I told them I would be home in Feb Rach got really excited according to mum. I want to see Rach. I want to see my house, my room, my car, my family. I want to eat food with lots of garlic in it. I made a list of all the food I was dying to eat the other day. One thing I didn't put down but the thought consumes me is dim sims with plenty of soy sauce that my dad sometimes makes on a Saturday afternoon.
Anyway, I have to go down stairs and get ready for work. I am hoping that my lack of posts of late is because of the unsureness I was feeling about my decision and that I can get back to posting more regularly!! This weekend I'm off to Milwaukee to see The Fray so will definitely have a post about that!!!
Have fun.