the reaction
so, it turns out when i emailed my mum to tell her about the extension news her server at work was down. so she found out through rachel. so guess what? she's hit the roof. big time. i get this email yesterday, which i'll paste bits of because if i was eatting something at the time, i would've chocked:
"I'm so gladPat is happy with your decision, naturally that's the most important thing.Must keep Pat happy. Your sister will not be coming over, firstly because she won't have the money and secondly I don't think she would want to fly all that way on her own and yes I think she is quite upset about your decision. But it's your decision to make and you've obviously made it based on what you feel is right for you. It's also helped me make a few decisions and I think I'll box up all your things and rent your room out, as it will be empty for over 12 mths now which doesn't make a lot of sense."
heck that's pretty much the whole email. so that's it. how things change.
i was so angry i actually wrote back and told her i didn't appreciate her hostility towards my decision, blah blah blah, pack up my room if that's what you want, clearly it's your house and i have no say and then said i was so angry that i had nothing else to say.
i was angry. so i stewed on it for while i watched two-a-days which made my concentration on the show pretty shotty, then thought i'll text rach. god only knows if mum got my first email in reply to one of her others because i couldn't make sense of the sequence of events to her finding out. but yeah, she was ranting and raving and pissed off as all hell. and i'm sitting here thinking, you're the one who was saying to rach that i should marry a damn american and you're flipping over an extra 6 months? so today, after more thinking (i must admit, i almost caved but figured i'm far far away and don't have to actually listen to it) i emailed them tonight, at the home address because clearly sending it to her work address where the server might be down could cause issues, stating why i had decided to stay (not to keep anyone but me happy [i didn't say that, i'd have sounded selfish] and not because someone had told me to [she has it in her head that chelle told me to, i may have put that idea in her head by not repeating the conversation we had accurately, i didn't realise she'd get so damn angry]), why i am only staying 6 months, and i am not comfortable with my stuff being packed up but if that's what she really wanted to go and do clearly i've no say. then i finished off with saying i'll be calling for fathers day and not to bother talking to me if she planned on arguing and the same goes for dad. isn't that just a lovely email? i was very calm. i had to control myself so bad to not write back last night and go off about her split personalities (i think she really suffers from them) and to go to hell because for once i am happy with my life.
so yeah. happy happy families. on top of that i'm figuring out that someone who i once felt close to i am not so close to anymore and it could any number of reasons, but to be honest, i'm getting lazy with that and feel like things like that shouldn't be such hard work. and i still haven't called jas back from the weekend my parents left, so that's got to be done and i need to write my grandparents, who i still haven't written to since they went up to the gold coast for winter.
so that's me in a nutshell right now.
"I'm so gladPat is happy with your decision, naturally that's the most important thing.Must keep Pat happy. Your sister will not be coming over, firstly because she won't have the money and secondly I don't think she would want to fly all that way on her own and yes I think she is quite upset about your decision. But it's your decision to make and you've obviously made it based on what you feel is right for you. It's also helped me make a few decisions and I think I'll box up all your things and rent your room out, as it will be empty for over 12 mths now which doesn't make a lot of sense."
heck that's pretty much the whole email. so that's it. how things change.
i was so angry i actually wrote back and told her i didn't appreciate her hostility towards my decision, blah blah blah, pack up my room if that's what you want, clearly it's your house and i have no say and then said i was so angry that i had nothing else to say.
i was angry. so i stewed on it for while i watched two-a-days which made my concentration on the show pretty shotty, then thought i'll text rach. god only knows if mum got my first email in reply to one of her others because i couldn't make sense of the sequence of events to her finding out. but yeah, she was ranting and raving and pissed off as all hell. and i'm sitting here thinking, you're the one who was saying to rach that i should marry a damn american and you're flipping over an extra 6 months? so today, after more thinking (i must admit, i almost caved but figured i'm far far away and don't have to actually listen to it) i emailed them tonight, at the home address because clearly sending it to her work address where the server might be down could cause issues, stating why i had decided to stay (not to keep anyone but me happy [i didn't say that, i'd have sounded selfish] and not because someone had told me to [she has it in her head that chelle told me to, i may have put that idea in her head by not repeating the conversation we had accurately, i didn't realise she'd get so damn angry]), why i am only staying 6 months, and i am not comfortable with my stuff being packed up but if that's what she really wanted to go and do clearly i've no say. then i finished off with saying i'll be calling for fathers day and not to bother talking to me if she planned on arguing and the same goes for dad. isn't that just a lovely email? i was very calm. i had to control myself so bad to not write back last night and go off about her split personalities (i think she really suffers from them) and to go to hell because for once i am happy with my life.
so yeah. happy happy families. on top of that i'm figuring out that someone who i once felt close to i am not so close to anymore and it could any number of reasons, but to be honest, i'm getting lazy with that and feel like things like that shouldn't be such hard work. and i still haven't called jas back from the weekend my parents left, so that's got to be done and i need to write my grandparents, who i still haven't written to since they went up to the gold coast for winter.
so that's me in a nutshell right now.
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