tuesday

so i went to my first class of college last night and call me stupid but i didn't know we were supposed to have already got our text books and read them! not entirely have read them, but read them a bit. i was saved by the fact that the main book we use isn't in the bookstore. and then found out it costs about $94 american. i almost fell over. so i got on ebay today and bidded on one. then i bought another one off amazon. three books we need. i have to make tim to read three history books. i like chick lit and war books, history is gonna be a struggle. but the bonus is, the other people in my class are american's!! so i might actually have an american friend here. unbelievable.
the kids have gone to bed. i should go to bed soon because i have to be up early to get alex and matthew up and off to school. pat's mum is going to come and help out in the arvo and i'm hoping that when emily's down i might be able to get in an hour nap cause i'm going to be fucked.
mum and dad are putting in the money to my account today so i can book my tickets for november (lozz - i'm booking my tickets within the next 36 hours, so there is no way in hell either of us can back out). and i still haven't made any decision as to whether i should stay or go. i'm definitely thinking the coin toss is going to happen. i say i want to stay then i think, no i want to go, i say i'll go and i think no i want to stay. hard hard hard.
anyway, will go as i want to check my bank account again and flights to ensure they're still the same price.
oh and by the way, i forgot to mention i told my lcc (she's like my first point of contact in case something is not right or somthing) about merwin because he'd done some other stupid things to other girls. so i told her what had happened to me and she was shocked and then she wanted to know if i knew anything about anyone else so i told her what i knew. so karen met with merwin and his host mum, told them what she knew and the host mum decided that he had to leave. so he was supposed to be on a flight home this thursday. karen calls me tonight and says he did a runner this morning and is now illegal in the country. thank god he never found out my address. mind you, since he'd been found out he hasn't contacted anyone so maybe he just wanted to get away from south africa.